After the flood

After an emotional flood (this time from family events beyond my control),  I need to come back into myself. I must find some stability within myself, which I know is there. How do I come back into myself? First, by realizing that spinning outside of myself only creates a web for something else to get trapped in. Second, to remember ways that have worked in the past to comfort and calm myself. Third, to make a firm commitment to  restore my peace.

So I asked myself: what brings me any inner calm and peace. I start to remember places and activities that ground me in myself. I find my home to be a sanctuary, if I keep it clean, cook healthy food, and have fresh flowers, clean sheets, and the smell of home cooking in the kitchen.

I sweep. I make the beds. I open the windows. I give the flowers in the vase fresh water. I cook a lasagne.

The late afternoon sun casts a warm glow through the windows. And I pause. Admiring the beauty.

Pause. Feeding beauty, calmness and serenity in my home, in myself. Sweeping away all that I cannot control  that only festers anger and ultimately hurts my well being.

Make a list of what makes you feel calm, serene, and full of love and beauty.

1. The blooming magnolia trees

2. The baby owl at the park

3. A fresh apple raisin muffin from my favorite bakery

4. The Mary altar at the Cathedral up the street

5. The folded towels in the linen closet

6. A good joke

7. A hug

8. Fresh air

9. Singing to myself in the car

10. Saying all the things I am grateful for every day