Year-End Reflections

As we end another year, I see the pull to look at the year in terms of accomplishments. Yet so much of what happens to us is beyond that framework. As the calendar year gets ready to turn, I have decided to reflect on ways my “being” has grown and expanded.

This year, I had to face a lot of fear. The day before my father died, his eyes were filled with love, and when I looked at him, his brown eyes were a pool of deep love. I remember saying to myself: Don’t be afraid. Let yourself receive this love. Are we allowing ourselves to receive the love from others that is being offered to us? How are we stopping ourselves from letting more love in?

Responding to fear has been a theme for me this year. When I was promoting my book, there were moments when i felt gripped with fear. If I would meet my fear, with patience, perseverance and hope, then it wouldn’t take over. I am facing more fear as I encounter insomnia once again in my life. I can try all my techniques, take supplements, and then I have to surrender to the experience and have faith that I will find my way back to the shore.

Can you take comfort in reflecting on your interior growth this year, and not just on your list of accomplishments? Were you able to say no to a negative thought and turn towards faith? Were you able to persevere after a poor night’s sleep and remain hopeful? Were you able to encourage a loved one who was having a hard time? Were you able to say you were sorry to someone? Can you recognize your life as a journey?